Thursday, January 12, 2012

Counting My Blessings

The last few weeks have been difficult. The winter depression has hit me particularly hard this year. A good night's sleep been non-existent. I'm lucky to get 4 hours of sleep per night. In between crying jags, I was dwelling on how yucky I felt. Then the phone calls began.

My cousin died in Afghanistan this week.

A homeschool friend from the town where we previously lived lost a son to suicide.

My neighbor filed for divorce and was later arrested during a domestic altercation.

A dear friend is also undergoing extreme stress.

My little troubles no longer seem so important. Loneliness will not kill me. My children (even when they drive me crazy) are reasonably healthy, happy, and enrich my life on so many levels. I may not spend as much time with my husband as I would like, but we have a rock solid marriage and still love each other after all these years. My children who are searching for employment have taken part-time work and fill their spare time with productive endeavors.

The depression is still here, but it seems so much easier to count all the wonderful blessing that God has given me.


Cheryl said...

I am so sorry for all of that bad news and also sorry that you are going through a difficult time. Your challenges may not seem to rise to the level of the things you listed, but that doesn't make them any less hard to bear. I pray things look brighter soon.

Barb the Evil Genius said...

I agree with Cheryl; you are still having difficulties even if they may not seem great relative to what others are going through. I don't want to diagnose you online (grin) but there are things that can help with the winter depression cycle. I hope that one of them works for you and that you feel better soon.